Nineteenth Duel [Text/Voice Post, Japanese]

[to_blossom]

...

[There is an extremely long pause that follows once the recording starts. One that almost makes you wonder if Utena meant to turn on her communicator at all. But then she lets out a heavy sigh, and the faintest sound of a pillow being squeezed tightly between her arms can be heard.]

I'm... ...not very good at this, am I?

Prydain and Seifer... you were both counting on me, and I only let you down... I let myself be controlled, and acted out selfishly. I forgot who it was that I was really supposed be protecting in the first place, and in the end...

...

I couldn't protect anyone at all.



...I'm sorry.

[Click.]

[[ooc After watching so many of her friends die right in front of her and recalling how she was affected by the chip, Utena has been moping around in her room for the last two days and cutting herself off from mostly everyone else. - I'm sorry for the lack of tags during the event itself. I was having some unexpected voice issues.]]

Comments

[mizu-isei.livejournal.com]

You couldn't choose to be strong. You were used ... there's no fighting what happened.

Whoever did this shouldn't have done it.

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

...

I'm not sure what I can do now... You're right, though. But I still-...

[mizu-isei.livejournal.com]

I think, if you're a strong person....

It would be harder to be strong now, after this. If you are, you can do it. And if your friends are good friends, they'll forgive you.

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

Fujiwara-kun...

[mizu-isei.livejournal.com]

... Do you think you can?

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

...

I can't do much if I just let it stay this way, huh?

[mizu-isei.livejournal.com]

You're right. Some of your friends probably need your help too...

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

Compared to that, my own regrets seem so small...

Thanks. ...Whether you meant to or not, you might have just helped me a whole lot.