Nineteenth Duel [Text/Voice Post, Japanese]

[to_blossom]

...

[There is an extremely long pause that follows once the recording starts. One that almost makes you wonder if Utena meant to turn on her communicator at all. But then she lets out a heavy sigh, and the faintest sound of a pillow being squeezed tightly between her arms can be heard.]

I'm... ...not very good at this, am I?

Prydain and Seifer... you were both counting on me, and I only let you down... I let myself be controlled, and acted out selfishly. I forgot who it was that I was really supposed be protecting in the first place, and in the end...

...

I couldn't protect anyone at all.



...I'm sorry.

[Click.]

[[ooc After watching so many of her friends die right in front of her and recalling how she was affected by the chip, Utena has been moping around in her room for the last two days and cutting herself off from mostly everyone else. - I'm sorry for the lack of tags during the event itself. I was having some unexpected voice issues.]]

Comments

[crystal-eyed.livejournal.com]

Don't. It wasn't the worst I had to deal with.

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

Heh. I think it's a little late for that.

I feel like I owe a lot of apologies... though it won't ever be enough. Not really.

[crystal-eyed.livejournal.com]

...a prince does not stand around lamenting his mistakes when something can be done about them.

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

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[crystal-eyed.livejournal.com]

You can either stand by idly lamenting your mistakes and wallowing in your misery like a pitiful fool, or you can correct your wrongs and make sure that the mistake in question never happens again...like a prince.

1/2

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

["...like a prince."]

...

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

You're right, Eald. Completely.

...I'm not really acting like myself, am I?

[crystal-eyed.livejournal.com]

That depends on whether you are the prince or the fool.

Which will it be, Tenjou?

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

[...]

Do you really have to ask?

[crystal-eyed.livejournal.com]

Heh. I suppose not.

[to-blossom.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[crystal-eyed.livejournal.com]

Heh. You're welcome, I suppose.